Gorgeous day today. Michael will walk down the hill to Chinatown for cherries, and hopefully will bring back a leek for the lager chicken tonight. He needs the exercise, especially since he’s been filling up on beignets all week. I will pay for my own consumption of fried dough by riding my stationary bike.
We had a two hour conversation on Facetime this afternoon with my Uncle and his wife in Ashville. North Carolina seems enticing. We could see behind them a window looking out onto their lush back yard, a shifting mass of green leaves. My uncle said “the bears are back,” a sure sign of summer in Asheville. During last night’s zoom discussion at the library I’d noticed them suddenly looking at something off camera. They said they’d heard what sounded like a shotgun going off somewhere in their neighborhood, said it was probably someone scaring off a bear. It made the sirens and church bells we hear in the distance depressing. Wish we could actually be there to sit across a table from them, enjoy a meal together.
I miss even more visiting my brother and his family in Los Angeles, and regret not going down there for Christmas. Today is my eldest niece’s birthday. Incredibly enough, she is nineteen. I’ve been contemplating a picture from our wedding, a group shot in Golden Gate Park. My niece, almost two, is half rising from her stroller, head glowing red through her blonde baby hair, mouth wide in a shriek of rage, I am standing nearby in my wedding gown, holding my bouquet and talking to the rabbi, Mom is frowning at the baby, Dad is frowning at something off-camera, and several guests have turned towards the stroller. Today that screaming toddler is a blonde, beautiful, long-legged California girl who should be at school in Tulane, should be enjoying New Orleans with her circle of friends, but is stuck in the Los Angeles house with her parents.
I tried to call her this morning, but her VM is full, and anyway, I’ve been told that her generation hates speaking on the phone. (I have never liked it either so I understand.) I sent her a text. Later I think we will call my sister-in-law so we can hear their voices.
It is horribly, horribly unfair. Both my nieces are on the verge of adulthood, and the world they were looking forward to, just beginning to reach for, has been snatched away. Whatever is eventually returned to them will not be the same. I hope so much it will be better in at least some ways.